Weight Watchers – Week 3 & WW Trick #9 – What About After ‘Moving’?


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  • Loss/Gain: +1.4 :-(
  • Meeting Topic: What’s Your Next Move?  Summer Bucket List of Moving

I should have waited to post my “I like to move it, move it” post, but I didn’t mainly because I didn’t know this weeks meeting topic.  Oh well.

“Knowing you’ll be active tomorrow is a good way to make fitness happen.”

While I already talked about fitness yesterday I wanted to take it a step further by discussing what happens after moving is done.  By moving I mean your workout.

I am one of those people that will exercise and then say “I earned X Activity Points, therefor I can eat this here cookie, or ice cream, or hamburger.”  I’m sure on some level we are all like that.  If you’re not, you are so much more disciplined than I.

There is a slight problem with this.  3 reasons why:

  1. You are most likely not burning what you think you are.  I am the queen of this.  Before I had a Heart Rate Monitor I was like “Oh the WW activity list is God” when in fact it is a cruel evil mistress.  Once I got my heart rate monitor I looked at the calories burned and realized that I was burning almost half the Activity Points that I thought I was.  Well crap.  I’m not dissing on the Activity List, but I kind of am.  I have a pretty good heart rate because I run, so if I look up running for 60 minutes, it’s something like 10 APs.  But I am only burning like 600-700 calories (on a good day) – which in no world equates to that many APs.  This is simply my way of looking at it.
  2. Awarding yourself with food after a workout is counter intuitive.  I’m not saying you can’t indulge a little, but burning 600 calories and then eating like crap for the rest of the day is not a prime way to lose weight.  You might, if you’re lucky, maintain, but the numbers won’t change on the scale for the positive.  You have to have a deficit to lose weight.  I suggest indulging with a glass of wine, or a beer.  Or full fat dressing all over your big ass salad.  Possibly dessert.  OR like me – buy shoes.  Shoes are so much better than brownies.  Plus,  you aren’t a dog.
  3. After you work you feel great – eating crap is not only physically, but mentally a way to take that away.  After I run – like last weekend with 14 miles – I was on top of the proverbial world.  I came home and the first thing I thought was “BETHY HUNGRY.  BETHY SMASH.”  So instead of being like “Jason let us go and gorge ourselves on hamburgers and french fries, washed down with a big milkshake.”  I said “I want Chipotle.”  Some might htink that this is no better, but I have perfected the healthy Chipotle exsistence.
    1. Chipotle Bowl – Brown Rice, veggies, chicken, mild/medium salsa & Guac = 12 P+ (Very Filling)
    2. Chipotle Salad – Lettuce, veggies, pinto beans, mild/medium salsa & Cheese = 7 P+ (Verrryyy filling) – you could do any combo of these items and still get a good lunch that is P+ friendly.

I tend to not feel disgusting after Chipotle, and Lord knows I eat it like 2 times a week if not more.  There are healthy-ish options everywhere, you just have to ask for them.

I also need to limit my alcohol because that is a big calorie suck.


Answer the following questions and I will randomly draw someone on Friday – August 8 – for the winner of a new Weight Watchers Water Bottle (24 oz)

With a better straw than my ugly green one

  • What is your go to going out healthy meal?
  • After exercise, do you tend to gorge yourself?
  • What are your thoughts on APs?  Use them?  Leave them?


Weigh In & WW Trick #5 – Ripple Effect @WeightWatchers


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What is a ripple effect?

I think of it as one action that has many reactions.  So if you run 9 miles one week, running 9 miles the next week might be easier, and then it might be easier to run more as the weeks go by.

Or in the case of Weight Watchers™, if I track 100% honestly and with in my points one week, I’ll lose weight.  If I continue to do this, I’ll continue to lose weight (Theoretically… we all know outside forces sometimes don’t let this happen).

This week I LOST 0.4 pounds.

No, that’s not a lot, but given my gluttony on Sunday, this is amazing.  ABSOLUTELY AMAZING.  It also gave me the jump start I needed to actually get back in the groove.  I really think Meetings are the way to go for me, mainly because I feel accountable to everyone there.  Not like I feel as though I have to be successful for them, but that they all want me to be successful.

A very good way to start this ripple effect is the Weight Watchers™ Program Simple Start©.  It’s a no tracking, just eat from the approved foods list for two weeks.  I’m going to shoot for this starting next week just to try it out.  After that program is over, if you like the way it works, you can just do Simply Filling™ which is simple start but for the long term.

Collection of Simple Start meals

Photo: Weight Watchers

From the article in this weeks meeting, we learned about taking small changes and making them turn into a big payoff.  Substituting ice cream for fat free yogurt and fruit.  Walking the dog instead of watching TV.  More power foods over junk food.  Drinking skim milk over 2%.  More water, less soda.

You get the idea.


What are some changes you have made or could make to start a positive ripple effect in your life, whatever your journey may be?


Defeating The Scale Tuesday – Week 10

I’ve stolen your idea Meagan

  • Starting Weight: 190.8 pounds
  • Current Weight: 193.2
  • Week Difference: -0.4
  • Total Difference: +2.2
  • Emotion: Whatever

I know what I did wrong.  I know how to fix it.  I know that my exercise rut has taken over my life.  I know that the depression and mania is not under control.  I know my drinking isn’t under control.  I know I can’t live like this.

All this and I leave for vacation on Thursday which is pretty much a get out of jail free card with regards to food.  Right?


I’m actually going to be mindful, or at least try.  I tend to not go crazy on vacations anyways because we are constantly doing things, and therefore I can’t simply be like “Oh wait, I need to buy a pastry”.  Not that I do that normally, but you get the idea.

I tend to eat the meals, and then that’s it.  MAY BE we stop and get something special if we are in the vicinity of something awesome (I see this happening a lot with Gelato and coffee), but mostly, no.  We just stick to meals.

I’ll be walking a lot, which will log with my FitBit and thus Myfitnesspal.  I’m actually considering forgetting about WW for the vacation and focus on MFP.  When I get back from vacation it can go back to it’s blended way of present time.

My exercise was non-existent for the most part this week.  I’m not sure where that drive went.  I used to feel guilty if I didn’t workout.  I would be constantly looking for validation that it was okay for me not to do anything.

Now, i’m like “Meh.  Whatever.”

Tonight I am planning on taking the dogs to the vet for their vaccinations, and then coming home, throwing dinner in the oven, and going for a run.

It will be cooler this evening and I need to get back into the swing of it.

I will either run outside or on the treadmill but I will run darn it.

Defeating the Scale Tuesday – Week 9

  • Starting Weight: 190.8 pounds
  • Current Weight: 13.6
  • Week Difference: + 1.4
  • Total Difference: +2.6
  • Emotion: Meh

Not really defeating the scale, am I?  I just got my paper tracker and my FitBit zip so I am using those now.  I am so pissed at myself.  SO PISSED.  How.  Did.   I.  Let.  Myself.  Get.  Back.  Here.

Oh I know how:

  1. I didn’t track honestly.  I would track Breakfast and lunch and possibly snacks and then say eff it by the end of the day.  Then I would eat what I want and act like it was no big deal, when really, the pain of it was festering.
  2. I dropped my activity level.  A few years ago when training for the Half Marathon I was running about 30 – 35 miles a week.  I could eat a bit more liberally.  But, since I have pretty much abandoned the training (For the past 4 or so halfs and pretty much every other race) I haven’t been able to continue keeping the weight at bay.
  3. I let myself comfort myself with Food.  Bad day? FOOD.  Crappy Week? FOOD.  Great day? FOOD.  Awesome week? FOOD.  Oh and let’s not forget the bored eating.
  4. Alcohol has become a staple that it never was before.  I used to laugh when people told me that when they started Weight Watchers and cut back their alcohol, they lost a ton of weight.  I used to think “I don’t drink that much.”  Well that’s changed.  I drink too much, too often.  I wake up feeling like I’ve been hit by a truck most weekends.
  5. My desire seems to be gone.

I want to lose weight, but that doesn’t mean I am ready to lose weight.  Which blows.  I’m trying to push myself in that direction because I am tired of the way I look, the way I feel, and how low I see myself.

Today, after seeing the read out on the scale, I forced myself to wear heels, nice pants, and a new top I bought.  I forced myself to look nice, in hopes that the confidence boost in my nice clothes would help.

It’s a new day, it’s a new week.  I will conquer it.

Defeating the Scale Tuesday – Week 7

  • Starting Weight: 190.8 pounds
  • Current Weight: 193.0
  • Week Difference: +1.6
  • Total Difference: +2.0
  • Emotion: Over it

I just, I can’t.  I can’t keep doing this.  I can’t keep letting myself down.  It has no explanation or excuse except I didn’t do it.  This isn’t because my body holds on to weight, or that I am bloated, or that it’s muscle over fat.

It’s that I just didn’t do it.

The scale number has come and gone, and I am just irking up closer to my weight when I started this whole thing 6 years ago.

I never really cared enough in high school to try and lose weight.  I figured that it wouldn’t happen because I wasn’t born that way, I wasn’t athletic, and well sitting in a parking lot eating taco bell and doing other destructive things to my body isn’t conducive to weight loss.

So what’s the plan?

I don’t have one.

The Before and After Weight loss Photos or Pictures by xyngitoff weight loss by vi vi90daychallengeI have no excuse.  “I can’t do it” is not true.  I can, and have before.  I am 20 pounds (TWENTY) pounds heavier than my lowest adult weight.  That was May 25, 2012.

I look back at that and think “GOD I WAS SO FAT”.

It’s depressing.

June 2012 – Not fat

I can’t fit into those pants now.  That shirt barely stays down because my stomach makes it roll up.

I would never wear something sleeveless now.

March 2012 – Not fat

April 2014 – May be not fat, but sure as heck not happy, not where I want to be

I think it’s a weird balance to strike.  I think that we will always seek improvement of ourselves, which is fine, but there needs to be a point of contentment or at least acceptance.

It’s no shocker that I am in therapy, and something she said last night was a real ‘A-ha’ moment, that I have to say people have told me before, but not as bluntly.

“You think you are the Queen of F***** Up.  Well I have news for you.  I’ve seen A LOT worse.  You aren’t even in the top 50%.  In comparison, you are not even bad.  You just think you are because you do nothing but compare yourself.  You compare yourself to the coworkers you have, the woman you see on the street, Kate Middleton, etc.  But what you don’t realize is NONE OF THEM are 100% happy.  If they say they are 100% happy with themselves and every aspect of their lives all the time, they are lying.  We all have insecurities, and we all have low points.  So yes, you might have more than some people, but you are still here.  You can change, but first you need to stop feeling so sorry for yourself and grow a pair.”

Harsh? May be.  What I needed?  I think so.

So on to another week.



Defeating the Scale Tuesday – Week 5 – Is It Failure?

  • Starting Weight: 190.8 pounds
  • Current Weight: 192.2
  • Week Difference: +0.8
  • Total Difference: +1.2
  • Emotion: So what happened was…

It’s not failure if you continue to try, but, what if you stop trying?

I ran 19.3 miles last week including my 10 mile race.  I was eating everything I wanted.  I figured that my running would cancel it all out – like I always do.  I drank some extra water, ate some more fruit, and then made too many trips to the cafe, too many excuses that I could eat more than the serving size, and only tracked what I felt comfortable tracking.

We went to the brewery this weekend, and while I composed myself and didn’t drink to excess, I could have only gone one day.  I could have taken better care of myself.  I could have.  I would have.  I should have.

Could’a, Would’a, Should’a.  But didn’t.

I look at all the women and men who are successful and I wonder what is different with me.  It’s not my metabolism, it’s not the exercise.  It’s the motivation.

It’s the belief that I am worth it enough to not let food control me.  To not turn to food or drinks to silence the demons in my head.

Being bipolar shouldn’t matter with regards to my weight loss, but it does.  While I am working with a doctor to get my meds straight and on the right levels, I am self medicating for what they aren’t doing.  I’m restless, and bored, so I eat.  I find a new recipe so I bake, and then of course I have to try it, which then turns into half of whatever I made.  I like trying new beers – something I never really liked (I used to hate beer) because my husband and dad like doing it, and it was a way to enjoy time with them.  Kind of like Baseball – never was a fan, until I saw my dad was.

I am not blaming anyone for my actions in any regard.  I now enjoy baseball (A lot) and I enjoy beer (too much).

Jason mentioned yesterday that he felt this was getting out of hand – mostly for the money aspect – it ain’t cheap.  I agreed.

My world seems to teeter on the edge of being completely out of control, and being  completely numb.  Being diagnosed Bipolar was not a shock to me, but at the same time, it never felt real.  I look back at high school with every stupid thing I did as a way to stop the pain.

Now, that I am not part of that lifestyle anymore, I’ve been using food.  I did so well, losing 40 pounds and being in the best shape of my life a few years ago.  Somehow without realizing what was happening, it started to come back.  I’m up 20 pounds from where I was 2 years ago, and that is so sad.  I can’t believe I thought I was fat then.  I look at those pictures and think “Man.  I was freaking hot.”

So now what?

I’m not sure.  I could say I’m going to be better this week, and I will make the effort.  I could say “I’m not sure.”  Or I could do nothing and let my actions speak for themselves.


Defeating the Scale Tuesday – Week 3 – Standstill

I already knew this secret.  Someday, I am going to try it,  I swear I am.  Just as soon as I finish pinning 100 more fabulous desserts!!!!!!

  • Starting Weight: 190.8 pounds
  • Current Weight: 190.6
  • Week Difference: 0
  • Total Difference: -0.2
  • Emotion: Motivation?

I was surprised that I didn’t gain this week, but also, as usual I was upset that I didn’t lose either.  I do realize that a lot of my weight at this point isn’t just fat, but muscle.  My calves are pretty tight and hard and so are my hamstrings.  I guess if I didn’t feel like an Ox barreling down the hallway when I walk at work, the number on the scale wouldn’t matter so much.

Buy, hey look, it does.

I ran my 7 miles yesterday which was painful and horrible and I hate treadmills.  I think I am developing a hate of running because of treadmills.  I don’t hate it when I am outside or when I am in a race (except for the last mile) so it has to be the treadmill.  I feel weak on it.  My legs and shins start to scream on it.  I think I have found the solution to my own problem.

Today I didn’t really have a workout planned so much as I was going to see how I felt at the end of the day and go from there.  I think I might do some HIIT and arm exercises but without a plan in front of me I look dumb just going through random exercises.  Ugh.

Maybe I’ll do a workout from Drop 2 Sizes and then sprints on the treadmill.  hmmm.

Food Today:

  • B – 2 eggs, 3 strips of bacon, coffee & fat free half and half (6p+)
  • Snack – Orange (0p+)
  • Lunch – Chipotle Salad – Lettuce, Brown Rice, Pinto Beans, Veggies, medium salsa (5p+)
  • Snack – Apple, Banana (0p+) or Quest Nutrition Bar (5p+)
  • Dinner – Gluten free pasta, Ground beef, pasta sauce (12p+)

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