I changed my account to Monthly Pass yesterday, and will be going to my first meeting tonight. I’m nervous as a hooker in church, but I’ll get through it.
I’m leaving work at around 3 to get home and get my run over with so I can be at the center by 5. I’m thinking this will hold me more accountable than just online has. I think the idea of going each week will keep me on track.
Just have to get in the door.
- Breakfast: 3 eggs, zucchini, bell pepper, onion; coffee w/ milk
- Snack: water
- Lunch: Chipotle – lettuce, veggies, medium salsa, corn salsa, barbacoa, cheese
- Snack: more water for my run
- Dinner: Pork tenderloin with zucchini pasta
Activity: 3 miles this afternoon. I should have done it this morning, but sleep was needed.
I’m missing Moody something fierce right now. I keep thinking his little 11 pound body will be next to my bed. I keep thinking that I have to mix his food. I keep thinking I have to get his shot ready. I keep thinking he’ll be asleep next to me on the couch. I miss his presence. I miss his fur. I hate that I know I won’t ever hold him again.
Breaks my heart.
I’m hoping that this new turn I am taking in my life will be exactly what I need. I hate waiting, even though I think I am being really patient. I’m fighting really hard, I’m trying to be strong. I’m trying to see the progress, no matter how small.
I’m really trying. In running and mental stability and weight loss, really trying.