“Failure is not something that you are, it’s something that you do.” – I can’t remember who wrote this and google isn’t helping.
What a concept. What a truth.
I am not a failure for my mistakes. I have failed in the past. The point is, what I learned from it. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again but expecting different results.
I do this too.
So I fail at things and I am insane.
I can work with that.
Step 1 – What’s not Working?
I can’t have ice cream, chips, crackers, cookies, 100 calorie packs, etc in the house without overeating, and overeating hard. Except every week at the grocery store, these items make it into my cart. WHY? because I am a glutton for punishment? Because I don’t actually want to lose weight? because I don’t have control?
That is all B.S.
I do have control. I am a strong person who doesn’t need that cupcake, that milkshake, that frap from starbucks, the box of cereal, the 1/2 gallon of ice cream, or that 4th beer.
Okay sometimes I need the 4th beer.
I can’t keep eating the way I’ve been eating and expect things to change.
Step 2 – Removing the Problems
It’s easy to say “I won’t buy that stuff” but when I am at work with a cafe downstairs, a candy jar on my bosses desk, and people constantly bringing in delicious homemade items, it’s hard to stay accountable.
So how do I do this? Plan plan plan. Bring snacks with me to work that are healthy – fruit, veggies, protein bars, chug water, lots of water. STAY OUT OF THE WORK KITCHEN. I don’t even put my lunch there, so why am I constantly venturing back there? IN HOPE SOMEONE HAS DROPPED FOOD.
I’m like a dog really.
Step 3- You will slip up, so don’t beat yourself up
When I do slip up, which will happen, I can’t beat myself up about it, and I sure as heck can’t throw in the towel and say “I’ll start again tomorrow” I’m starting now. Today I pack my breakfast, snacks, and lunch all up for me to bring to work. I have confidently walked past the candy jar 3 times and not even looked at it (Okay I looked once).
I saw the scary number on the scale, and I thought that would shove me in the right direction, but instead I just got comfortable with it. I got used to seeing the number on the scale and stopped letting it bother me. Instead I would just blame myself and state that I am too weak to lose weight, and it will never happen.
That needs to stop. Yes, it’s my fault, but those bad decisions don’t define me. I need to grow up.
Step 4 – Stop Chasing My Tail
I just run. All I do is run. All I do is run and run and run. At first I was like “BOOM LOSING WEIGHT!” then I was like “Man I am hungry ALL THE TIME.” Then I was like “Oh I can eat whatever the heck I want because I ran X miles today! BRING ON THE SHEET CAKE!”
Oh that doesn’t work, does it?
So I was running like a crazy person, eating like a crazy person, and then running more to burn off the food, which would then make me eat more.
I pretty much went between the same 5 pounds for the past 6 months. Well how am I going to fix this? I’m running 3 races in the next 6 weeks, and running a bunch in the fall – INCLUDING A MARATHON.
easy peasy. I’m adding in other workouts. I’ve started my DVD collection again. Dusted off some Bob Harper, some Jillian Michaels, some Firm DVDs, and I am getting to it. I plan one rotating them so I don’t get bored or too used to one over the other. I have the Biggest Loser Bootcamp which I talked about before (that kicked my butt). I have the Firm Strength Training DVD (which always kicks my butt). I also just got Jillian Michaels Kickbox Fast Fix – while I know it will not be a fast transition from flab to fab, I like the motivation it gives.
Step 5 – Rinse and Repeat
I will have good days, and bad days. Heck, I might have GREAT days. I might also have HORRIBLE days. That is life. So instead of dwelling on the horrible days, and the problems, I’ll hold on to the good days. I’ll use those as motivation. I’ll keep going with those.
B: 2 eggs, 3 strips of bacon, coffee, and a banana
L: Wrap with turkey, provolone, onion and grain mustard; yogurt; diced pears; carrots
S: Quest Nutrition Bar
D: Where ever I go it will be a salad with protein
Activity: 4 mile run & 20 push ups