Today is my last day at my current job of being a Systems Engineer. I walked through these doors in December 2009 and didn’t know what to expect or how to be. I was so afraid of being laid of or not having an idea of how to do my job, that I kept my mouth shut, my filter up, and my head down for the majority of the first few months.
That quickly left.
I grew up here. I made friends here. I loved it here. There were problems along the way – as there always are – and I worked through them. It wasn’t until I realized that what I am doing is fine for now, but what I want to do is “over there”. The “over there” is what I wanted to do originally, which is teaching.
I took a chance, grabbed it, and succeeded, not without failures along the way (Don’t get me started on the Praxis II… bitch of a test). I maintained a 4.0 GPA through the entire program up to this point, I have recommendations from all of my professors that are glowing to say the least. I have a great mentor teacher that I will be learning under for the next 15 weeks. I have the world at my fingertips.
But I am sad.
I learned so much from these people, and formed such beautiful friendships, that now it makes leaving so much harder. When I started this journey of switching careers, I didn’t really have a person – let alone people – to connect with.
I’m desperately trying to convince myself that these people will only vanish if I let them vanish.
I sit here, tears behind my eyes at this point, a lump in my throat, and an unsettled nature in my stomach as I leave this behind.
If you are a coworker and you read this blog, I love everything you have done to mold me into the person I am now. You have touched my life in such ways that I can’t even begin to form into words.
I love you, I thank you, I admire you.
Goodbye, my friends.