What I Did On My Long Winter Stay-Cation


I posted infrequently over the break, and most of the time it was short and not so sweet.  I decided since this is my morning back to reality that I would post a recap of my life since December 20.

The first day of our vacation, wasn’t a vacation at all.  We spent the entire day at a funeral and reception for Jason’s Aunt Daphne.  We had a pretty bipolar day as that evening we were celebrating our friend nuptials!

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Lisette and Alex finally tied the knot since marriage is legal in DC now for everyone (I don’t like the term gay marriage, because Jason and I don’t use the term “straight marriage” so it seems dumb to use a different nomenclature for them).  It was a joyous night that continued late into the evening.

We then went to a hockey game with my dad – where lost in overtime – but still it was nice to hang out with my dad for the night, drinking too much beer, and eating too much fried food.  That Sunday I met up with Adie (of AdieCakesBlog fame) and her Fiance (and Jason too) for Hunger Games in IMAX.  We had already seen it, but she hadn’t, and IMAX.  I will see pretty much anything in IMAX.  It was glorious.

We putzed around most days sleeping late and taking many target trips.

Christmas eve we did our normal thing of Church with my parents and then dinner at Tony’s Pizza in Manassas.  We then meandered home to watch TV before passing out.  We had to go to McLean in the early morning to pick up my Grandmother (so my dad didn’t have to do two trips out there) so our Christmas morning alone was pretty short.

We spent the morning with my family, and then evening with Jason’s.  It was good day.

Then there was more putzing around, deciding what recipe I would use with my new French Oven (it’s French and not Dutch because it’s from France.) and then we went to TJMaxx randomly and found a KitchenAid Stand up mixer for more than 50% off.  So then I became the proud mamma of that.

My Christmas continued with more La Crueset items, and general spending of money on random things at Target.  We totally know how to manage our money responsibly.

New Years Eve showed up and we went to the Heritage Brewing opening in Manassas.  I know, I am a loyal customer of BadWolf Brewing across the street, but I wanted to see what the new place was like (As did Jason and my Father in Law).  So we eagerly waited in line outside to buy our drink tickets and head in.  $7 a beer/flight/or experimental brew tasting, seemed pretty steep.  The flights were only 4 beers (which I didn’t get to pick) out of the 6 + seasonal they had on tap.  They were supposed to be 2 oz servings each, and instead mine were mostly head (the guy pouring had no idea what he was doing) and were not as good as expected.  I had a few problems with that evening:

  • The prices for the pints were too steep for an opening night- especially when we didn’t get a pint.  It was more like 8 – 10 oz because of the people pouring.
  • The flights should have included all the beers that they are regularly having on tap
  • The sitting area should have been extended because of how many people there were.  It was a total fire code violation
  • Children should NOT have been allowed in.  I witnessed too much running around in a location that is dangerous (exposed industrial areas) for kids.
  • You had to go back outside and wait in line to buy more drink tickets when there was a woman inside with a register who could have easily done this indoors.
  • No one knew what they were doing.
  • The fact that there were “normal brews” and “experimental batches” was kind of confusing.  This was there first night of being open.  Everything was experimental.

I would and will go back, but most likely not for a while.  It felt chaotic, unorganized, and the beer wasn’t as good as I thought it would be for having delayed the opening by 3-4 months.  I donated 100 bucks to their kickstarter, so I think the people who did that should have had a private opening experience.

We then parted ways with Jason’s dad, and partied with Lisette and Alex again for some dinner at Sweetwater and then Champagne and coffee at their house.  It was a nice relaxing evening.  We don’t need or want flare.  We are too old for flare.

After that night it was pretty much a whole lot of nothing.  I got an extra day of “vacation” (I worked from home) because of a freak snow thing on the the 3rd (last Friday), so Jason and I built a fire, I worked on my laptop from the couch and we watched a crap load of the Tudors.

Yesterday (Sunday) we woke up late, and then headed to Mosaic District for lunch at Cava Grill and then Gelato at Dolcezza.  They had a separate Dolcezza across the street that was basically a coffee shop that sold gelato as well.  We ordered our drinks and settled down at a table and chair area and had one of the best afternoons that we have had in a long time.  It’s the type of day where you realize the simple conversations over coffee were what was missing.

It was a great break, all in all, and here are some pictures recapping the experience:

 

Heritage Brewing

Heritage Brewing

Heritage Brewing

Heritage Brewing

Heritage Brewing

Heritage Brewing

Beef Stew - the dinner that took my French Oven's virginity

Beef Stew – the dinner that took my French Oven’s virginity

There was a good amount of running.  I've pledged to run 700 miles (at least) in 2014.

There was a good amount of running. I’ve pledged to run 700 miles (at least) in 2014.

Cooking Extravaganza - Soupe au Pistou

Cooking Extravaganza – Soupe au Pistou

Cooking Extravaganza - Mini Bacon, Onion Quiche

Cooking Extravaganza – Mini Bacon, Onion Quiche

Cooking Extravaganza - Fluffy Drop Biscuits

Cooking Extravaganza – Fluffy Drop Biscuits

Date Day - Latte Art

Date Day – Latte Art

Date Day - Latte Art

Date Day – Latte Art

Date Day - The love of my life, the reason I am here, and the motivation to be better.

Date Day – The love of my life, the reason I am here, and the motivation to be better.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Wanting Versus Being Committed


I think with many things in life, there is a blurred line between wanting the result and being committed to getting the result.

Getting an A on a paper in school, doing well on a project at work, keeping your marriage on the right path, moving to a new location, finding that dream job, being happy, and of course losing weight.

I think on and off over the past 5 years of my weight loss journey I have flirted with wanting to lose weight (When the pounds kind of come off and then I plateau) and being committed to losing weight (when the pounds simply drop).   I realized this morning that pretty much for the past year I have been in the wanting mindset over the committed mindset more so than not.  This is troublesome because frankly, you would think, that if you want something bad enough, it should just happen right?

I’ve got an arsenal of blogs that are motivating, inspirational and exactly what I need to hear constantly being updated in my reader – SO YOU WOULD THINK IT WOULD JUST CLICK RIGHT?

Well, it does and then it doesn’t.  It clicks when I am reading it.  It clicks for hours afterward.  I am motivated, content, and ready and then something (Anger, Depression, stress, boredom) hits and I’m back to my old ways.

That was until I read the post from Run Roll Repeat today.  She went home and was surrounded by temptation of fried food and still managed to stay on track.  I was like “HOW?” and then I realized.  She is committed to losing weight, not just flirting with the idea.

Then I started thinking about other people’s blogs I read.

Runs For Cookies Lost over 100 pounds, and has kept it off.  She runs Marathons!

She’s Losing It is an incredible blog about a mom who got incredibly fit while still being a mom

Healthy Tipping Point is of course my go to for running advice and recipes that are both delicious and healthy.  She is informative without beating it into you.

BitchCakes is one of my biggest role models.   She lost 100 pounds and is now training for the NYC Marathon this year.  She is kick ass, and it still curvy and didn’t try to fit herself into some skinny mold.

The Spicy Simmer is a great blog with cooking and CSA goodies.  She has amazing mouth watering recipes and a great personality.  Very motivational in the kitchen.

You’d think with all of this wealth of knowledge, I’d be set.

The fact is, I am set.  I have more than enough ability and knowledge with these few blogs to master whatever I want in my weight loss journey.

The commitment just hasn’t been there.  I can run and run and run and lift and lift and lift alllllllllllll I freaking want, and it will make no difference if I eat like crap.  I need to be mindful.  I am going to be mindful.

I have tracked my day out, and I am planning on a run this afternoon once I get home.  I am excited to start lifting next week after the Half Marathon is over.  I am also working to clean up my diet.  I know I eat mostly healthy, but I am not eating the right things to keep me satiated.

I’m also not drinking nearly enough water.  So here starts my plan of being committed to losing weight.  Come hell or high water.  I just want to be back to where I was this time last year (about 10 pounds less), and then I can work from there.

Today’s Plan:

  • Breakfast: 1 slice Ezekiel Bread 1/2 TBSP of Better n’ Peanut butter, Yogurt and blueberries & Coffee
  • Snack: WATER
  • Lunch: Southwest Salad (Ready Pac brand), Yogurt, Apple, Turkey Muffins
  • Snack: WATER
  • Dinner: Spinach and Feta Turkey Muffins & Mac and Cheese (Light)
  • Activity: 2-3 Miles on treadmill

LET’S DO THIS.

Recipe Review: Skinny Fish and Chips


As seen on The Londoner - I was dying to try this recipe, because when we were in London I pretty much gorged myself on Fish and Chips (The best place that I had on holiday was at The Swan in Paddington – I am sure there are ‘better’ versions, but that one stuck out to me for some reason).

Well if you look at the nutritional information for Fish and Chips anywhere, it will make you cry.  I think the lowest I found – just for the fish, no chips allowed – was 700 calories.  HOW CAN THEY MAKE FISH SO BAD FOR YOU?

Oh… right.

So when I was browsing through the recipe section of my favorite London Blogger and saw that she had a LIGHT version… I about cried.  Then I added it to my menu for this week.

Original Recipe

There might be a difference in my recipe with hers.  She’s in London and I am in the States, so there is bound to be a conversion factor :-)

Ingredients (for two people – or one really hungry runner):

  • 2 Fillets of Halibut or any white fish (I used halibut) – I also bought this fresh – but you can buy flash frozen fish.  Fresh fish is expensive yo’ – especially for my Midwest readers.. buy what you can… I suspect Frozen would work just as well.
  • 2 Cups of Breadcrumbs
  • 1 Tbsp Dried Chili Flakes
  • 1 large Egg
  • Oil

For the “Fries”

  • 2 Sweet Potatoes (She calls for 5, but I’m on a diet, and I could eat 5 pounds if I tried)
  • 2 Tbsp of Chili Flakes
  • Rock Salt
  • Oil

She makes her own Tartar sauce – because she’s perfect.  I, however, am  not.  So i bought mine from a store… but for those who are talented and patient enough:

For the sauce:
(The sauce makes enough for about 4-6 people, so just pop the extra in the fridge)
3tbsp skinny mayonaise
1/2 cup Crème fraiche
3 sprigs of fresh dill
2tbsp capers
1/2 a fist full of fresh chives
3 or 4 cornichons (little gerkhins) & a tbsp of the juice from the jar
Juice of half a lemon
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Instruction:
Preheat your oven to 350 Degrees F (180 degrees C - What??? Turns out I have readers in Europe!)
Line a cookie sheet with foil.  Throw your peeled and chopped potatoes in to the pan and drizzle with about 3 TBSP of oil, top with the chili flakes and salt to taste.
Use your hands to spread the oil and toppings over all of the potatoes – realllllllllly cover those babies.
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These will need to cook for at least 25 – 30 minutes (longer if you like them burned like me)
While you are waiting you can make the sauce…
Or stare at the Tartar sauce you bought at the store?
This is a mighty fine bottle of Tartar Sauce.

This is a mighty fine bottle of Tartar Sauce.

Now for the Fish!
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Mix the breadcrumbs and chili flakes together in a bowl.  Crack your egg and whisk it into another bowl.  Cut the fish into strips, if you haven’t done so already, and then submerge each strip into the egg.  Then, roll the egg fish in the breadcrumbs.  Lay to rest on a clean plate at the end of your assembly line.
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Soon you will have the beginnings of a fish mountain.  Bask in its glory.
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Check your fries.  If they look done, remove from oven, turn oven off, and add them to a bowl.  Put the bowl back into the oven that is off and cooling down to keep the fries warm.
Put a frying pan on the stove and heat it up.  When it’s just about to smoke, add enough Olive Oil to coat the bottom of the pan, and swirl it around.
Turn the heat down to medium, and add the fish strips.
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When you see the fish turn white and the crumbs start to brown, flip them.  When the fish are done they should be white all the way through, no pink or translucent fish here.
I like mine kind of burnt... yeah, that's it.

I like mine kind of burnt… yeah, that’s it.

Add them to a clean plate and scrape the excess breadcrumbs from the pan on to the fish.  Get allllllllll the crunchies you can.
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Plate this amazing dinner and enjoy!
Man Approved!

Man Approved!

I suggest drinking a beer with this while watching Broadchurch or Law and Order UK to get the full effect.
(Which is exactly what we did.)
Nutrition Info – Recipe Builder in MyFitnessPal (not including tartar sauce, and I used 2 TBSP of Canola oil, and 1/2 cup of breadcrumbs total – I measured what was left over after breading the fish… so I guess… just use less the begin with… as to not waste)
  • Calories – 570
  • Carbs – 46 g
  • Fat – 22 g
  • Protein – 44 g
  • Fiber 5 g

Not the most healthy meal, but a darn good substitute when you are craving the bad stuff!

Recipe Review : Guilt Free Egg Fried Rice


I must seem like an obsessive fan, but here is another recipe from The Londoner.  She’s most likely black listed my name from most London Venues so there is no chance we’ll ever bump into each other (OH MY GOD I WOULD JUST DIE).  I kid I kid.  She doesn’t know I exist, and that’s cool too.  JUST KEEP POSTING RECIPES.

Ahem.

So here is my recipe review on her Guilt Free Egg Fried Rice.

In her recipe she added Prawns, which would be fine, but I wanted to use the chicken I bought, so this is Chicken Fried Rice :-)

(It is not necessary to call and gloat to your local Chinese takeout place that you don’t need them anymore.. because frankly, You can’t quit them.  Not even with this recipe.  Don’t burn bridges.)

Original Recipe

To Feed 3 or 4 people (OR LUNCHES FOR THE WEEK!)  (Or if you are having one of those days… 2 people):

Ingredients:

  • 2 TBSP Coconut oil
  • 2 TBSP sesame oil
  • 2 Cloves of garlic, crushed
  • 2 or 3 chilies, chopped
  • 1 head of cauliflower
  • 2 Chicken Breasts, skinless boneless, cooked and cut into strips
  • 2 Eggs
  • 2 Spring Onions, chopped
  • 1 handful of fresh coriander (cilantro), chopped
  • 1/4 cup of peanuts, chopped
  • soy sauce
  • Sweet Chili sauce for serving (optional)

Directions:

Grab the cauliflower and tear off the leaves.  Chop the head into smaller sections.  You’ll want to grate these pretty finely.  I used my food processor.

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If your pile of ‘rice’ is damp wring it out in a tea towel and let it sit out to dry out a bit.

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Get a wok nice and hot and add your oils.  Crush the garlic and fry it up until it’s a golden brown.

Next add your chilies.

Followed by your ‘rice’ which you will need to stir thoroughly to get all the flavors mixed in evenly.  After about  a minute, add your spring onions and then 2 TBSP of soy sauce.  Stir well.  Once the rice starts to look golden, you know you’re on the right path.

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Throw your chicken (or protein of choice) in.  Stir for about another minute or so.  Then make a well in the middle of your rice.

Crack your egg into it.

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Let it fry a little.

Then break it up with you spatula and just as it’s starting to look cooked, stir it through the ‘rice’.

Repeat that process with the second egg, and you are done.

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Sprinkle your chopped peanuts on top, and enjoy.

Or eat it out of the wok.  That works too.

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Nutritional Information – From My Fitness Pal Website (Nutrition based on a two serving recipe)

  • Calories – 535
  • Carbs – 26 g
  • Fat – 31 g (but they are all GOOD fats)
  • Protein – 43 g
  • Fiber – 12 g

Recipe Tuesday – Mexican Stuffed Zucchini


So I found this recipe on Skinny Taste and I tweaked it a bit, mainly because I didn’t have all the ingredients and I threw out some of the stuff while cooking, so, I had to make it ‘my own’ because I never know how to read ahead in instructions.

So here we go!

Serves 2 People

Ingredients

  • 2 Medium Zucchinis – cut in half
  • 1/2 pound of 99% fat free ground turkey
  • taco seasoning
  • 1/2 an onion
  • salsa
  • sour cream
  • cheese – coarse grating
  • 1 tbsp of canola oil

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Directions

  1. Bring a large pot of salted water to boil.  Preheat the oven to 400 degrees.
  2. Cut the zucchinis in half and using a small spoon scoop out the inside seedy area.

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  1. Once the water is boiling, boil the zucchini’s for about a minute.
  2. Place the zucchini halves in a cooking dish inside facing up
  3. Brown the turkey meat in a skillet with 1 tbsp of oil (I used canola, but feel free to use your oil of choice).

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  1. Chop the half of an onion and add to skillet with turkey.
  2. Once the turkey is cooked through, add the taco seasoning to 1/2 a cup of water and then to the skillet.   Simmer until the liquid cooks off.
  3. Spoon the turkey mixture into the halves of the zucchini and top with the coarse grated cheese.  Cover in foil and cook in the oven for about 30 minutes – until cheese is melty and the zucchini is cooked through.

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  1. After it’s done cooking add salsa, sour cream, etc toppings you desire!

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Transformation Tuesday! {Bachelorette Finale}


June 23 2007

June 23 2007

That was me more than 6 years ago.  I think the only time I ran before this point was from the cops! (Haha… er..ah.)

I was squeezed into that dress, and felt like I was a stuffed sausage.  I was uncomfortable.  I was in pain (There are bones in the bodice of the dress that were pinching me to no end.)

I know the point of the wedding night is to get out of your wedding dress as fast as possible, but I think the Husband was a little shocked at how fast I ripped that thing off when I got to the apartment.

and “OH YES” came out of my mouth the minute that zipper went down and I could put my jeans and tank top on.  Fat needs room y’all.  That dress didn’t provide room.

It provided room when I bought it, of course.  It was the 18 months between the time I bought it to the time I had to wear it that I decided to gain 15 pounds.

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July 5, 2013

Obviously not the same dress – BECAUSE THAT WOULD BE WEIRD! – But I think it’s obvious the changes that have occurred (or we can say it – the 40ish pounds that are no longer on my body).  I’ve got a little be longer to go, but I am happy at this point when I think about how now that dress doesn’t even stay up.  It literally falls down when I try it on.

Now on to more important news…

Who watched The Bachelorette Finale?

I KNOW.  What the crap.

Okay so we start off from last week, where Des is still crying and wondering what she is going to do.  She talks to Chris Harrison and he’s like “Well what do you want to do?” and she is all like “I just want to go home.”  Then like 5 seconds later she is like “I want to continue on.”

So she has her little “It doesn’t matter” Rose Ceremony where she has two roses and two guys left.  Both Drew and Chris are like “OMG IS SHE GOING TO PICK ME?” and I’m like “This is math I can do, you’re both safe.”

She then decides that before she lets the guys meet her family she wants one more date with them.  Pretty much from the point her and Drew are on screen together, she’s like “Yeah no.”

She takes him to the beach via horseback – which frankly no one seems to be enjoying, including the horses – and then they sit down on the beach and she’s like “I can’t.” and then apologizes, and Drew is all sad and walks away along the surf to the limo waiting to take him away from Rejection Island.

The next date with Chris seems to go a bit better, as there is no poetry throughout the entire date – which we are all THANKFUL FOR.  They take a boat ride around the water and the island and she feels comfortable with him.  Okay, well that’s not love.

They then have dinner, where Chris gives her a journal for her to write in, and in the back of the journal are all of the ‘poems’ he ever wrote her.  GAG.

She then decides he can meet her family.  So they do, and her father and him talk and a blessing is given for him to propose to Des.  YAY.

Des and her brother sit down – I swear this is the only voice of reason in the entire show – and he’s like “Well like a week ago you were so upset about Brooks leaving, and blah blah blah… Rushing into this? blah blah blah.  I have lots of tattoos…. blah blah blah… Are you sure?”

And Des is all like “YES I AM.”  In a tone that screams that she is trying to convince herself.

Well…. Scan to the last rose ceremony.

Oh yeah and Chris has NO IDEA Drew has been sent home.

Chris goes into this whole lecture about how he loves her, and poetry is great, and then just as he is about to drop to one knee, Des says “No, wait.” and that she has some things to say.

She explains that Drew was sent home, and that she had really strong feelings for Brooks, and that because of those feelings she wasn’t able to see what was in front of her this whole time (I’m guessing she means Chris?) and that she loves him.

WAIT WHAT?

and then he drops to one knee, proposes with the most beautiful ring that someone would chop off her hand for (My husband’s words) and she says yes.

 

I am literally on the edge of the couch screaming “WHERE IS BROOKS?”

Fly to the After The Rose ceremony…

Brooks comes out, nothing has changed, he still doesn’t love her, and she is all like “Well I’m engaged.”

This is where I decided to go to bed.  I have also decided to never read spoilers again, because I was always Team Brooks.  I was sure that he would have gone back to his villa, added more gel to his hair and realized that Des and him should be together, and then run up during Chris’ proposal and be like

“IT’S GONNA BE ME.”

But that didn’t happen.  Reality Steve was all like “WHOOOPS” on twitter (I got my info from him originally) and I’m like “THAT’S ALL YOU GOT?  WHOOPS?”

Here are my problems with this:

  • She obviously settled.  I mean you don’t go from being gung ho about some guy to being in love with someone else that quick.  I think she likes Chris, may be even cares about him a lot, but to go from all sobbing over Brooks to being engaged to Chris, is kind of bullcrap.
  • It looked more manufactured by the franchise than ever before.  With all the other seasons there was always a front runner, we always kind of knew.  This time it was the lesser of two evils that she chose.
  • She seemed vastly uncomfortable the entire time Chris was next to her at the After the Rose ceremony (I watched it this morning).  She didn’t seem in love, where Sean and Catherine were all like cute and stuff, it seemed forced with her.
  • I give it three months.

The best thing to come out of last night?

JUAN PABLO IS THE NEXT BACHELOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  If I wasn’t married… I would TOTALLY BE APPLYING.

 

Today’s Plan:

Meals – Pretty much same as yesterday – Check out my Recipe Review from last night’s dinner – Beef and Broccoli over Brown Rice - except dinner tonight is Zucchini Taco Boats (Recipe on the blog tomorrow!)

My run yesterday was an awesome 4 miles – so I am repeating it today!

Monday Recipe: Beef and Broccoli Over Brown Rice


Serves 4 normal appetite people/2 extremely hungry people

Ingredients

  • 1/2 pound – 1 pound Beef for stir fry (I bought stir fry beef cuts from Harris Teeter)
  • 2 heads of broccoli
  • 1/2 of a large Onion
  • 2 TBSP of Worcestershire Sauce
  • 2 TBSP of Soy Sauce
  • 1/2 cup cooked brown rice
  • Salt and Pepper to taste

Directions 

  1. If you have not already cooked the rice, now would be the time as it will take about 45 minutes, unless you use that instant crap, in which you should:
    1. take instant rice box
    2. walk to trash can
    3. deposit rice box in trash can
    4. walk away
  2. Cut up the heads of broccoli in bite sized pieces, throw in steaming bag and place in microwave.  Cook on high for about 4 minutes.  Leave bag in microwave when done to rest.

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  1. Add 1 TBSP of oil (Veggie, Canola, Peanut, etc…. anything but EVOO, you need higher heat without the smoking of the pan) and heat in a pan on medium/high

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  1. once the pan is hot, add the beef and chopped onions to the pan.  Use a spatula to move the beef around so it doesn’t burn, but cooks evenly.
  2. Once the beef is done cooking, add the broccoli to the pan and then the soy sauce and W. sauce as well.  Salt and pepper to taste.

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  1. Serve over Brown Rice (or Quinoa if that’s your thing)

MyFitnessPal:

321 Calories / 18 g carbs / 11 g fat / 39 g Protein / 3 g fiber

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Garbage For Breakfast


2 eggs
1 bell pepper
1 onion
1 cup cooked spaghetti squash
2 oz of Jennie -O turkey sausage

Chop onions and bell pepper roughly, add to frying pan with oil. Throw in spaghetti squash to give it a bit if a crunchy texture.

Fry the eggs and the sausage together in a separate pan.

Once cooked, add everything on to your plate, and enjoy.

You’re eating Paleo!

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Paleo – Shopping, Eating, Living


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So today is it.  I started Paleo.  It’s kind of funny, because even though I am planning on a cheat “meal” (not a whole day) each week, I acted like yesterday was my last day to ever eat bread.  I over indulged.  I felt gross.  I came home from lunch with the family and jumped into workout clothes again and busted out another 2 miles – bringing my mileage for the day up to 5.  Not too shabby, but not really what I would call damage control.  May be that helped me not feel like I was going to explode.

The Husband and I then proceeded to drink wine and beer and watch 3 hours of Game of Thrones.  Exciting!  No really.  I was really happy that it was back.  I was also really happy to see that Joffrey is still a little ingrate that deserves his head on a spike.  BUT other than that…

Tonight is the big grocery haul for my conversion to Paleo.  The Husband was nice enough to take me last night to get somethings for breakfast and lunch today and then I am planning on pretty much meat and veggies for dinner at the Wegman’s hot bar.

Grocery List:

  • Produce: Baby carrots, bell peppers, broccoli, apples, bananas, onions, sweet potatoes, cauliflower, snap peas, brussel sprouts, Spinach, radishes, Asian Slaw, Avocados, Spaghetti Squash
  • Bread: Husband’s Sandwich Bread
  • Meat: 2 pounds of ground turkey, Steaks, Chicken Sausage, Chicken Stir fry strips, Kielbasa
  • Organic: Honest Tea, Almond Butter, Almond flour
  • Dairy: Yogurt for Jason, Eggs, Hardboiled Eggs
  • Frozen: Fruit

Dinners This Week:

  • Monday: Meat and Veggies at the Wegman’s Hot Bar
  • Tuesday: Fried Egg w/ Ground Turkey, Veggies, Quinoa
  • Wednesday: Steak w/ Roasted Brussel Sprouts
  • Thursday: Chicken Stir Fry with Quinoa and Veggies
  • Friday: Homemade Paleo Pizza
  • Saturday: Most likely out
  • Sunday: Turkey Meatballs w/ Spaghetti Squash
  • Monday: Meatloaf w/ roasted veggie side

HOLLA.  I got this.

This morning I had Jennie-O turkey sausage w/ two fried eggs – prepared at home and then eaten at my desk.  I also had my protein smoothie with Almond Milk (WHICH I ADORE) and banana and blueberries.

Tonight’s Workout:

NROLFW Stage 1 Workout A5 & 2 miles of intervals

Get Excited.

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Tuesday Topic – Binge Eating/Diet in General


  • Has this year flown by so far for anyone else?  It seems like just yesterday I was freaking out about starting Graduate School and trying to figure out ways to fund it, not lose time for my training, and balance work and oh family and friends.  Now I am more than half way done with my first semester, and I am cataloging mistakes I’ve made along the way to make myself a better student, and hopefully, ultimately, a better teacher.  I have learned so much in the past 8 weeks that I am still kind of flustered that I was accepted to the program.  My mind is all a flutter today.
Fabulous Wine Induced Papers

Fabulous Wine Induced Papers

  • Right now I think the main focus I need to make for myself is my diet.  I know my issue is too much snacking (i.e. Bored eating) and the occasional (THANK GOD NOT FREQUENT) binge.  A lot of people think when they simply eat too much, it’s a binge, and may be for them it is.  I talk to my doctor the last time I was going through a binge period and she told me to write down everything – no matter how much or how bad – I ate during the binge.  So I did:
    • 2 sleeves of saltine crackers
    • 3 tortillas with hummus
    • 6 ounces of cheddar
    • 2 bowls (roughly 3 cups) of fat free vanilla ice cream
    • 2 diet cokes
    • 6 cookies (all we had in the house)
    • 1 bag of popcorn
    • 1 piece of wheat bread with Peanut Butter (about 2 TBSP)
  • The only reason why I stop there (I know some of you are sick just looking at that list) is because the Husband came home and it was time for dinner, which I then also ate without issue.
Pre Race Fuel - but it's consumed way too often - and not before many races.

Pre Race Fuel – but it’s consumed way too often – and not before many races.

  • So what can I do?  My doctor – as many other bloggers who deal with the same issue – said I need to find the root of WHY.  Why am I having these binges?  Is it boredom?  I frankly shouldn’t have time for boredom.  Any free time I have should be focused on school work, exercise, or sleep.  Is it emotions?  I need to learn not to “Eat My feelings” and focus on why I am feeling what I am feeling, and realize it’s okay to be sad.  Food won’t make it better.  Food isn’t going to hug it out with me, it’s just going to me more upset.  Which is the kicker.  I am upset, so I overeat, then I am upset because I overate, and then think, what the hell, I’ll start over tomorrow and be “better”.  I am the Queen of starting over tomorrow.  I am the Queen of excuses.  But when your only pants are so tight they leave indention marks on you stomach (that spills over your waist band) and you can’t find anything to wear that lets you breathe adequately, and in a hasty decision you donated all of your bigger sizes, leaving you with LITERALLY no clothes to wear once it gets warmer out – you start to realize, there is no more tomorrow.  You are in your tomorrow.  Tomorrow is staring at you with a bitch face laughing at your mistakes, and shaking it’s finger when you say “But I’ll do better!” Because even it knows, unless you make a valiant effort – which you haven’t done in almost two years – you won’t do better.  You will do the same and with that you will see the same results = nada.

  • I can’t go back so many steps to her, again.  I can’t go back to size 14, over 190 pounds, creeping towards 200 and look at myself in the mirror.  I can’t ‘wait for thin’ anymore.  I have to grab ‘healthy’.  It’s not so much a physical thing now, as it is mental.  I know what I have to do, but I have to want it, and need it.  
  • I spent the better part of last night wishing for some miracle.  The Husband said “you aren’t going to wake up magically one day and be thin, you have to wait.  It takes time.”  He’s right, but while I am waiting, I need to focus on getting my head straight.

  • I’m not the bride who almost couldn’t get her dressed zipped up and felt huge in her dress all day.  

  • I can’t hide from pictures anymore for fear that I won’t like what I see.  I am not going to make some big ass confusing plan to change my ways.  I am simply going to track what I eat.  I will continue to workout.  We went grocery shopping last night, and not only did we spend like NO MONEY but I didn’t put trigger foods in my cart.  I am going to be more mindful, keep myself busy.  Pre-track my food everyday.  Give myself a chance to see what happens when I actually put 100% into this.  I miss the way I was when I first started.  I was a rock star.  I dropped 25 pounds in my first 6 weeks.  I was elated.  I couldn’t believe that this was happening.  Every year I’ve said this will be the year I get into a two piece.  Well this will be the year. 

Tulle underwire top

  • Because JCREW sells swim year round, I am not ordering it yet.  I am waiting till I get closer to our Beach Vacay in now August (was June, but because of summer session we had to move it) – But this is the plan.  It’s not flashy, and it’s not all that revealing.  But I hope to feel comfortable enough to put it on and slather myself in SPF 30000 and sit underneath an umbrella in dense shade for a few hours at a time at the beach. 

One day at a time.  That’s all I can do.  So that is all I will do.  Today I have pretracked my meals on Myfitnesspal and Weight Watchers.  I am still with in my calories and points, and I am planning on running 4 miles after work (I swear once it warms up and I am not a baby anymore, I’ll be running outside).  I feel great about the NROLFW program, as I finished up week 2 yesterday.  I am starting Week 3 on Wednesday and upping my weight from 15 pound dumb bells to 20 pounders!  Then I need to buy more plates to up my weight for the next two weeks after that.  I am excited because it is still challenging and I want to see the results.  I need to see them.

Food For Thought on a Tuesday