• Somehow I have come to the conclusion that I am only ‘interested’ in losing weight.  I seem to be gung ho for about the first few days hours and then something un-clicks and I am suddenly ‘hungry’ and eating fistfuls of granola.  Now granted, it could be fried food.  It could be hostess cream cakes.  It could be a lot of things.  I buy healthy-ish food and then binge.  I’m not someone who drinks excessively and simply giving up alcohol (i.e. the one beer I have every so often at this point) isn’t going to change much.  I wish I was one of those people who could drop ten pounds just by not going to the bar.  I don’t go to bars now.  I’m not going to sit here and say “I want to lose weight!”  Because it’s not apparent to me that this is what I want anymore.  I want to be thin, feel better about myself, etc, but I am not really wanting to put the work or effort in it seems.  Which is more depressing than actually gaining each week in a crappy attempt to diet. 
• I don’t know what the aforementioned conclusion means.  I am still tracking.  I will stay with in my allotment today.
• I was supposed to get up and run 2 miles today.  I didn’t obviously.  This not only makes me really mad at myself, but really sad at the same time.
• I’ve reset my Weight and My Tracking on Weight Watchers.  Weigh in’s will be on Fridays.  I set my new goal weight which I believe is more attainable than my last one.  I have 19.4 pounds to go.  I’m going to try and take this one day at a time, as opposed to trying to plan out my whole week.
• I’ve planned my workouts up till the marathon.  I really needed to do this to make sure I got the mileage in.  I am terrified of not finishing the marathon, or worse, having to be driven to the end of the course.  So I need to make sure I get my work in.
• Whoa I am self absorbed.. How are you all doing?
• Here’s to a better week Loves.

And now for some humor to bring me out of this funk…