I randomly came across New Kids on the Block on Spotify, and immediately added all of the songs I could to a playlist, and commenced a dance party in my office.  My childhood came flooding over me, and how I swore up and down in my NKOTB sheets and comforter that Jordan Knight and I would one day be a couple, and he would sing me to sleep every night with the sweet poetic words of “I’ll be Loving You Forever,” complete in falsetto and smiles.

His hair was epic then too.  *sigh*

I was like what 7?  But I believed it.  I knew it.  I knew every time I watched their animated series episodes on Saturday morning that I would one day be the Princess of Jordan Knight (like he was a country, and I would automatically be royalty of him.).

It broke my heart when they fell from the spotlight with the onset of angry grunge music made by men who didn’t believe in soap.

It took me a few months but I was then sitting on my sisters bed listening to Nirvana, Pearl Jam, Dave Matthews, Stone Temple Pilots and Soundgarden, completely forgetting my long lost love of Jordan Knight.

Years went by and Middle School ushered in Mariah Carey, Boys II Men, Hanson, Backstreet Boys, and NSYNC.  There were similarities but something always felt as though it was missing.

High school brought the weird music era of my life where I was desperately trying to fit in at any cost, so I became a club kid.

Yup.

But it did.  Moving On from Paul Okenfold, John Digweed, and ATB.. I was brought back to the realm of ACTUAL instruments and began to listen to pretty much whatever I felt like.  Country, pop, rock, alternative rock, Jazz, folk, classics, etc.

Now to present day, sitting in my office, with the wonderful app of Spotify on my computer.  I did a search on songs with the word ‘Give” in their title – I was looking for something I heard on the radio and couldn’t remember the title but the song said give a lot – and BAM “Give It To You” came up by JORDAN KNIGHT.

*Add To Playlist*

I now have a NKOTB & Jordan Knight Playlist.  I have added all of his solo songs that are on Spotify, and have been listening non-stop.

So this should make me happy right?  Well kind of.  While I am happy I can hear his voice singing the sweet songs of my youth, I am sad, as I am sure many other girls of my age and older are, that my dream of being his girl, aren’t realized.  But I am not that pathetic, no.  I found someone else.  Whilst I was waiting for Jordan to find me, I met The Person Who Shall Not Be Named, and we are happy.  But I can’t let go of Jordan, and his beautiful vibrations from his vocal chords.

So this is my public plea, to Jordan Knight.

I will always have a place for you in my heart Jordan Knight.  I purposely chose my home room teacher in school because his last name was Knight and I was SURE he would be related to you.  (Yes I was in middle school/high school and this happened).  You will always be special to me, but you need to let me let you go.  Stop being everywhere.  Stop being all over my twitter – yes I am following you, but you shouldn’t tweet so much.  ’

I’m hanging tough – just like you said.  And Step by step I am moving on.  I’ll be loving you forever, but this girl has to go (please don’t go girl) i can hear you whisper, but I know I’ve got the right stuff to be your cover girl.

Tonight, I’ll figure out the question, Where do I go From here?

Keep on Smilin’

-Your Valentine Girl

Extra points to those who understand the hilariousness of my plea – not just by thinking I’m pathetic, but understanding my word choice.