Defeating the Scale Tuesday – Week 7


  • Starting Weight: 190.8 pounds
  • Current Weight: 193.0
  • Week Difference: +1.6
  • Total Difference: +2.0
  • Emotion: Over it

I just, I can’t.  I can’t keep doing this.  I can’t keep letting myself down.  It has no explanation or excuse except I didn’t do it.  This isn’t because my body holds on to weight, or that I am bloated, or that it’s muscle over fat.

It’s that I just didn’t do it.

The scale number has come and gone, and I am just irking up closer to my weight when I started this whole thing 6 years ago.

I never really cared enough in high school to try and lose weight.  I figured that it wouldn’t happen because I wasn’t born that way, I wasn’t athletic, and well sitting in a parking lot eating taco bell and doing other destructive things to my body isn’t conducive to weight loss.

So what’s the plan?

I don’t have one.

The Before and After Weight loss Photos or Pictures by xyngitoff weight loss by vi vi90daychallengeI have no excuse.  “I can’t do it” is not true.  I can, and have before.  I am 20 pounds (TWENTY) pounds heavier than my lowest adult weight.  That was May 25, 2012.

I look back at that and think “GOD I WAS SO FAT”.

It’s depressing.

June 2012 – Not fat

I can’t fit into those pants now.  That shirt barely stays down because my stomach makes it roll up.

I would never wear something sleeveless now.

March 2012 – Not fat

April 2014 – May be not fat, but sure as heck not happy, not where I want to be

I think it’s a weird balance to strike.  I think that we will always seek improvement of ourselves, which is fine, but there needs to be a point of contentment or at least acceptance.

It’s no shocker that I am in therapy, and something she said last night was a real ‘A-ha’ moment, that I have to say people have told me before, but not as bluntly.

“You think you are the Queen of F***** Up.  Well I have news for you.  I’ve seen A LOT worse.  You aren’t even in the top 50%.  In comparison, you are not even bad.  You just think you are because you do nothing but compare yourself.  You compare yourself to the coworkers you have, the woman you see on the street, Kate Middleton, etc.  But what you don’t realize is NONE OF THEM are 100% happy.  If they say they are 100% happy with themselves and every aspect of their lives all the time, they are lying.  We all have insecurities, and we all have low points.  So yes, you might have more than some people, but you are still here.  You can change, but first you need to stop feeling so sorry for yourself and grow a pair.”

Harsh? May be.  What I needed?  I think so.

So on to another week.

 

 

Race Addiction – I Need Help


This year I was planning on not doing too many races.  Last year there were a lot and Jason so kindly drove me to each one, meaning he had to wake up as early as me, and then wait for random amounts of time, for me to finish.

What a Guy.

So excited to be on the metro at 6:00 am

So this year was supposed to be a break.  Well we know how that worked out.

  • February 9, 2014 – Run Your Heart Out 5K – Reston VA – Registered – BIB# 111 – 32’41″ – COMPLETED
  • March 2, 2014 – Reston 10 Miler – Reston VA – Registered – BIB #189 – 1:48:40 – COMPLETED (PR!!)
  • March 15 2014 – Rock n’ Roll Half Marathon – Washington, D.C. – Registered – BIB # 21067 – 2:29:56 – COMPLETED
  • April 6, 2014 – Cherry Blossom 10 Miler – Washington, D.C. – Registered – BIB # 17254 – 1:54:29
  • April 27, 2014 – Nike Women’s Half Marathon – Washington, D.C. – Registered 
  • May 11, 2014 – Mother’s Day 4 Miler – Reston, VA – Registered – BIB# 29
  • September 14, 2014 – Navy/Air Force Half Marathon – Washington DC – Registered
  • September 28, 2014 – Perfect 10 Miler – Registered – BIB #1034
  • October 12, 2014 - Hokie Half Marathon - Registered
  • October 26 2014 – Marine Corps Marathon – Registered

10 races – so far, please someone stop me

  • 3 10-milers
  • 4 half marathons
  • 1 Marathon
  • 1 4-miler
  • 1 5K

Yeesh.  Granted I’ve finished almost half of the races this year, but the fall is just going to be more jam packed.  I consider it a great thing that a lot of the races leading up to the marathon align perfectly with my training schedule – the Hokie Half is on the last day I need to do 13 miles – How perfect!

I know that my calendar stops at October and that’s because I am not sure I will want to run after that.  We’ll see.  I might need a break.  OR I might be crazy and sign up for MORE races.

Only Time Will Tell.

The Hokie Half is great because my Husband is a Virginia Tech Alumni and has been dying to go back with me (and we haven’t been since his graduation, because I am a horrible wife) So, we are gonna drive down early on Saturday before the race get into our hotel, pick up my packet, and then walk around a bit.

I know he is excited.

I however need to remember to look at elevation charts before signing up for races.

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Mother…

Well I guess I will also be hill training this summer!  WHO ENDS A RACE ON AN INCLINE?  (asks the girl who will be running up this for the last .2 miles of the MCM)

OF COURSE I can’t find a picture, but literally, you almost have to crawl.  I’ve felt pain like no other after the 10K with that hill.. so + 20 miles should be a blast.

Of course there are other races this year that I want to do – Wilson Bridge Half (Great Course and where I PR’d!), Annapolis Half Marathon (Crappy course support, but the course itself was beautiful), MCM Turkey Trot (I’ve done it the past few years and love it..)… but we will wait and see.

I doubt I’ll get the other half marathon’s in, but maybe I’ll do the 10K.

Today’s Plan

  • B: 2 eggs, 3 strips of bacon, coffee
  • S: banana
  • L: Turkey wrap, yogurt, carrots, diet coke
  • S: banana & Quest Bar
  • D: Tacos!

No activity today because I have school, and I did 5 miles yesterday.

 

Happiness In The Coffee Cup & Work Pet Peeves


Hello All!

I went to bed last night at about 9:00 – 9:30 and while Jason was a bit like “Huh?” I was like “TOO BAD.  I’M GOING TO BED.  YES I’M OLD.”

I woke up this morning thinking, that was a smart choice.  YAY ME.  The alarm went off and even though I wanted to go back to sleep I got up anyways.  Moody Monster had been afoot (a nice way to say he was eventually going to pee in our room) for a bit around 5:00 am so I picked him and put him on the bed, where he promptly curled up next to me and fell asleep.

I got up at 6:00 am and took them down stairs to begin  my morning ritual of feeding them and preparing breakfast to go to work.  Jason meandered downstairs half asleep and said something that I couldn’t understand.  I went upstairs, showered, got dressed and then loaded everything into my car just in time to say goodbye to Jason as he was walking up stairs to shower.

Made it to work in about 25 minutes (WAHOO) and then I sat down and have been slammed ever since.

I’m drinking my coffee without sweetener now.  Just a little bit of milk.  Wow.  But it’s so good.  I think the fact that I have been drinking beer has extended my palette.  Now when I have something way sweet, I almost gag at it.  Which sucks, because cake.

Funny Confession Ecard: Wine does not make you FAT, it makes you LEAN... against tables, floors, walls and ugly people! Lol!!

Ain’t that the truth.

There are some new people working in my office and sometimes I feel like I should give them a handout on how not to act in the office (there are a lot of fresh from college people)  So here is my list of things that annoy me personally

Work Pet Peeves

  • People who come by looking for my office mate who is constantly needed by everyone and just stand in the door way and look blankly at me in the office.  No, I am not hiding him.
  • People who strike up a conversation as you are walking into the bathroom
  • People who have conversations with you in the bathroom
  • People who, while on conference calls, with their speaker phone, leave their door wide open so that everyone anywhere can hear
  • People who complain about the temperature in their office, constantly
  • People who eat fish for lunch
  • People who act like the kitchen at work is their own kitchen and therefor leave their crap lying around
  • Food pushers
  • People who walk into my office while I am working and sit down trying to talk to me about something meaningless
  • People who walk into my office while I am working and sit down
  • People who email me for something and then walk over to tell me about the email they just sent
  • People who constantly state that they came in early or had to work late, or work on the weekends, or are so overwhelmed – and they do this constantly.  Get over yourself, no one cares, you are replaceable.

WHEW that feels better.

 

 

Defeating the Scale Tuesday – Week 6


  • Starting Weight: 190.8 pounds
  • Current Weight: 191.4
  • Week Difference: -0.8
  • Total Difference: +0.4
  • Emotion: Better?

I was shocked to see a loss today because I know I haven’t been good.  I also know that I haven’t been trying to be good, especially on the weekends.

Today’s Menu:

B: 2 eggs, 3 strips of bacon, coffee, skim milk
S: orange
L: turkey/ham wrap, yogurt, carrots
S: quest bar
D: Peanut Chicken and Asparagus (this could be a complete fail, we’ll see)
I was planning on running outside this afternoon, but if you live in the DC area, you know the blinding rain we have going on right now.  So… I will most likely be on the treadmill for me 3ish miles.  I might be able to get back outside tomorrow, hopefully.
As long as I am moving right?
Weight loss humor.
I keep thinking I should join a gym this summer and just pump up while training for the marathon, but then I get worried about being judged.  A lot.  I worry about those various planet fitness commercials coming true.  I worry about people not wiping down the machines after they are done and getting sweat from someone else on me.  I worry about the showers and their hidden fungus.  I worry about my pants being see through.  I am worried that someone will recognize me.  I am worried that I will fall in the pool that is blocked by a separate room and a door, and manned by a life guard, because I don’t know how to swim.
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Eh.  We’ll see.
  • What is your favorite workout that isn’t running?
  • Good healthy lunches and dinners you love?
  • How are you doing so far this week?

Meal and Workout Plan (4/14 – 4/21)


Hello everyone!

The weekend wasn’t really  a weekend because Jason was at work the entire time.  So we barely spent time together, and the time together we did spend was spent eating and drinking.  Go us.

Friday we ate dinner and then went to BadWolf, where we met Jason’s dad and then headed back to his house for more drinking.  Needless to say, waking up on Saturday was fun.  Especially after going to bed at like 1:00 am and having Moody needing to go outside at 6:00 am.

A bit later we both got up, had brunch at El Cactus, and then Jason was off to work for the rest of the day.

I decided I would watch some Lost before heading outside to garden.  I got almost the entire front yard done with mulch and clean up and then quit for the day because it got hot and I was being eaten by bugs.  I showered and settled in until Jason got home, where we went to dinner and back to BadWolf  “just to get the growler filled” and that ended up being us closing down the place.  THEN we went to Monza, where I continued to drink and then get “Sad drunk” because that’s who I am.  Really, why does anyone let me have alcohol?

We went home and then passed out asleep.

Like clockwork, 6 am Moody wanted to go outside.  I waddled down stairs and put him out and then remembered my great intentions of running outside and getting it done early.  Did that happen?

Yeah, nope.

Yeah, nope.

I ended up running later in the day.  Which blew.  I only did 7 miles, and I felt like an idiot with 2 weeks till the Nike Women’s Half Marathon.

Then I cleaned up around the house, and cleaned up myself before heading back to the couch where I started finalizing my group project for the end of the semester (which is 3 weeks away).  Jason came home at about 5:30 and after I was done with my project we went to the grocery store.

Thrilling.

So our weekend wasn’t really a weekend.

This week’s plan!

Dinners:

  • Monday – Greek Salad
  • Tuesday – Peanut Chicken (Weigh in day)
  • Wednesday – Beef Pasta
  • Thursday – Tacos!
  • Friday – Homemade Pizza
  • Saturday – TBD
  • Sunday – Wegmans
  • Monday – Chopped Salad

Workouts:

  • Monday - Rest
  • Tuesday – Run
  • Wednesday – Run
  • Thursday – Rest
  • Friday – Biggest Loser Boot Camp
  • Saturday – Yard Work
  • Sunday – Long Run
  • Monday – Rest

Have  a Great Week!

 

Who Watched Game Of Thones???

 

This Year


Where has this year gone?  It’s already almost mid April?

  • Semester Ends : 210 Days
  • Italy Trip: 35 Days
  • Marine Corps Marathon: 198 Days

Sure there are other important dates, but those are the ones on my mind as this very moment.  Yeesh.

I printed out the MCM course map so I can absorb the whole thing.  Let’s put it this way, whenever I look at it, I get nauseous.  I am sure with time that will either pass or get worse.  Oh well.

This week in itself has kicked my butt.  It’s most likely the worst sleep I have gotten in a while, and it is really wearing on me.

I dropped off a bunch of stuff to be returned at the post office, and our taxes (right under the wire) at the post office this morning, and decided I deserved a drink from Starbucks.  It’s the little things.

My face has decided to break out like a teen going through puberty, so that’s fun.  Jason will be working weekends and working late for the next couple of weeks because Government.

So if anyone wants to hang out or keep me company, or bring me alcohol, I am around.

I plan on covering about 4 miles today for my run, and then doing 10 tomorrow.  Ambitious, eh?  I have a Half on the 27 and that will be my last long race till September.

Does anyone in Spotsylvania county want to put me up for a night so I can run a 20 miler on October 4?  No?

198 days till the MCM.

I’ve got nothing else, so here is a cute picture of my family and I for our Church Phone book.

Guess which one I am.

Guess which one I am.

 

 

Forget the Bridge


200 Days till the Marine Corps Marathon.  Wow.  I know that’s still far away and I have so much time to train but man.  200 days?  That doesn’t seem like much.  Lordy Lou.

So I think that once I run the Mother’s Day 4 Miler, I am going to start training.  Technically my training program isn’t until June, but I figure it can’t hurt.

Well I’ll start after Italy.

I just have to beat the bridge and then I am golden.  But I am forgetting the bridge.  I am going to trust my training.  I’m going to not be afraid of my training.  I am not going to look at the miles like they will own me.  I will own them, triumphantly.

If you want to run and need to find a charity to run with – Washington Human Society, who I am running with, still has spots.

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