WW Trick # 3 – Let’s Get Digital, Digital. I Wanna Get Digital. @WeightWatchers


** Disclaimer:  I’m not getting paid to endorse Weight Watchers or any of their products, which means I’m telling you my take from the process and products. Xoxoxoxoxox**


If you have a monthly pass or are an Online only member for Weight Watchers you have the world of food at your finger tips.  The eTools center and website are chock full of information right at your finger tips.  I especially like the Simple Start grocery list.  If you are a person who simply just grabs food from the store and hopes that you can some how come up with 3 meals a day over the next week, then you and I could be friends.

I started planning meals because of money, and now I realize that if I set up a healthy menu of dinners and lunches I can also set myself up to not go off plan by buying – ONLY – those things.  Sure, random things enter my cart as well, cereal, yogurt bars, etc.  But the bad stuff – the cake mixes, chocolate chips, etc. – I use for baking my coworkers goodies.  I never eat them which I think is funny.

Not my tracker… found on google images

Planning ahead also gives you the chance to put your meals into your tracker.  This works well for people like me with the memory of an ant.  That way I can just look at my phone – which is glued to my hand and usually at least in half of my line of vision – and see what’s for dinner.

I pre-pack my lunches most weeks because it’s a salad, so I don’t usually worry about that, but sometimes the coworkers want to go out to lunch, and well, that is always like ‘AHHHHHH’ for me.

Luckily, my coworkers like Chipotle (Not being paid for this either, FYI.  I’m just a blue blooded American who adores Chipotle).  So, I can go into my food look up on the tracker and add ingredient by ingredient what I am putting in my Chipotle meal.  It also helps that a lot of my favorite restaurants, Chipotle included, have their meals already in the tracker with the correct points attached – so there is no guessing.

Jessica Simpson and Jennifer Hudson

I wanna look like them, so regardless of the bad weekend, or the bad day, the bad month, the bad year, I will continue to fight after it.

Weight Watchers just makes it easier.

Marine Corps Marathon Training – Week 5

I'm coming boys!

I’m coming boys!

Week 5/18

  • Monday: Rest Day – Like a Boss
  • Tuesday: 3 Mile Run – 11’07” pace
  • Wednesday: 3 Mile Run – 11’15” pace
  • Thursday: 6 Mile Run – 10’38” pace
  • Friday: Rest Day – Like a Boss
  • Saturday: 12 Mile Run – 12’45” pace
  • Sunday: Cross Training – Walking – 2.50 miles on a 4% incline

Total Mileage – 26.50 Miles

It’s hard when you see the scale and think, I’m still effing up, to take a rest day.  But, I know if I don’t it will not end well, so here I am, following the plan, and attempting to not eff up my diet.

I’ve done really well sticking to the plan of Weight Watchers and for that I am uber excited and happy with myself.  I am looking forward to meetings and those gold stars coming soon.

WW Trick #2 – Mental Talk Through and Physical Action

One of my biggest problems is night eating.  We are watching TV or doing something that is relaxing and all I want is popcorn, ice cream, candy, chips, etc.  Last night was no different.  This is how I now navigate it:

  • Don’t have the stuff in the house.
    • This is a big one.  I don’t have chips, ice cream, etc. in my house because I know what will happen.  I will eat them, all, in one sitting.  It’s a lot easier to not have it in the house because you have to make the effort to go out and get something.  I know for me, that when it means getting up, putting on shoes (and let’s be honest, a bra) and driving somewhere, I can usually talk myself out of it.  Now, if Jason wants to go, that’s a different story.
  • Track it before you Snack it.
    • If I desperately want something I look it up in the tracker and decide if it’s worth the points.  Now if I have no daily points left over, I weigh that in as well.  I don’t like just using Weekly Points or Activity points on unplanned things because that is a slippery slope to go down.  So if I have the points and I really want it, I’ll get it.
  • Are you Thirsty?
    • A lot of the time I am just thirsty and not hungry.  It’s hard to tell this since I am constantly craving sweets, but alas, most of the time a big glass of water does the trick.  Also, take a bit of a walk.  I went for a walk during work yesterday and it completely fixed my craving.  I just wanted to get up from my desk, not eat a candy bar.
  • Find humor In All things
    Weight loss humor~
  • Exercise is Important
    • You need to move.  I don’t care what you do.  You could do Yoga on a treadmill while punch a bag (I don’t suggest this, but you get the point) as long as you are moving.  Yes you can lose weight by just changing your eating habits, but exercise is good not only for the body, but the soul.  Sweating is therapy.  Being sore is working through things.  The elation afterward is your reward.  Do I like exercising?  When I’m done, I do.  I like the idea of running, but when I am running I hate life.
  • ….but eating is importanter
    • Yes I know that is not a word.  You can’t out-train a bad diet.  You can’t eat crap and then workout and expect to lose weight.  AT BEST you will maintain (Hello, I’m this person over the last year).  You have to do things in moderation.  If you don’t follow Weight Watchers, use your own program.  BUT FOLLOW IT.  this doesn’t mean you can’t indulge.  You just can indulge 100% of the time.

These are some of my “breakthroughs” over the past week – something that has been building over the past years of trying to lose weight, only now, I’m actually listening.

WW Trick #1: Prepare, Prepare, Prepare

One thing I have noticed a lot with my issues in losing weight is that I fail to plan.  With this new go around, I have begun pre-planning my weeks, just to know what’s up.

Yesterday I had planned my lunch meticulously, and then was invited out by a friend at work.  It was too good to pass up, so I looked at the menu, picked the least bad for you thing (Salad w/ Chicken) and tracked every bit.  I had worked out that morning, so it wasn’t too bad of a meal.

Last night we went to Flight Night at BadWolf Brewing Company, and shared a flight.  I have about 2 beers total, so I tracked.  I dipped into my weeklies by 5 P+, but it was worth the indulgence.

This is how things have to be.  I have to weigh what is more important.

  • Having numerous beers and feeling like crap in the morning vs. having a small amount of beer and having a slight headache but not feeling weighed down
  • Having a large piece of cake and shaming myself later vs. having a tiny piece of cake and staying in control
  • Beating myself up vs. Forgiving myself

I know these seem like a no-brainer, but there are so many times where I have simply chosen the bad route because it was easier.  I was searching for comfort and found it in food.

I need to find comfort in other things, like myself.  I need to learn to process emotions and feelings without stuffing my face with food.  Mainly because it never helps.  It makes me feel worse.

This song was something that I listened to on repeat because it actually made me feel better.  It made is seem like I wasn’t alone in my self hatred.  The heavier girl in the video is how I saw myself.  I would hide food, take an ice cream carton and go into the bathroom to eat it.  Buy numerous baked good from bake sales, and just chow down.  I always felt full afterwards, but sick.

I remember being about 7 years old and going to the Sizzler with my family, which is essentially a huge buffet (well it is a huge buffet) with really good food.  I loaded up my plate 3 times, and then had ice cream.  I felt so sick, and so horrible.  I couldn’t sleep that night because of the pain.

Or having to shop in the adult section of Caldor because the cute clothes of the juniors didn’t fit.  Wearing my dads pants to school because they did fit, and saying they were ‘vintage’ made the bigger size ok.

Having a friend of mine in the 3rd grade tell me that her mother said I should lose some weight.

These are the moments that stick out in my childhood.

I didn’t have a lot of friends, and those I did have pretty much were friends out of obligation of their parents.  I was socially awkward but outgoing – which is a horrible combo.

I never felt in control.

Now, with planning my food, and planning my weeks out, I feel in control.  I feel in control of what goes into my body, and the exercise I do.  I feel in control of my choices.

Preparing = being in control


Weight Watchers Meeting Week 1

So I walked into my meeting last night and I was pleasantly surprised.

Name tags!

The leader was really nice, the orientation afterward was great, and the people seemed to be really supportive.

This whole process seems new and exciting even though I have done weight watchers before.  I never did it like this, and I never felt the entirety of the weight I have on my bones now.

I weighed in.


That is 2.2 pounds away from 200.

That is 23.2 pounds away from my highest recorded weight.

It breaks my heart to know that not that long ago I was 10 pounds away from goal.  TEN.  Now I am 37.8.

I shouldn’t focus on this, because it’s going to get better.  I took the first step.  I walked in the building.  The rest is up to me.

I am taking this feeling as well with my mental health.  I have to be patient.

With my running.  I have to be patient.

Patience is the lesson of the day.



  • B – Coffee, WW Oatmeal, WW smoothie
    S: diet coke
    L: Salad w/ zucchini, bell pepper, onion, cheese; yogurt, apple
    S: apple
    D: Homemade Pizza

So I Joined Meetings

I changed my account to Monthly Pass yesterday, and will be going to my first meeting tonight.  I’m nervous as a hooker in church, but I’ll get through it.

I’m leaving work at around 3 to get home and get my run over with so I can be at the center by 5.  I’m thinking this will hold me more accountable than just online has.  I think the idea of going each week will keep me on track.

Just have to get in the door.


  • Breakfast: 3 eggs, zucchini, bell pepper, onion; coffee w/ milk
  • Snack: water
  • Lunch: Chipotle – lettuce, veggies, medium salsa, corn salsa, barbacoa, cheese
  • Snack: more water for my run
  • Dinner: Pork tenderloin with zucchini pasta

Activity: 3 miles this afternoon.  I should have done it this morning, but sleep was needed.

I’m missing Moody something fierce right now.  I keep thinking his little 11 pound body will be next to my bed.  I keep thinking that I have to mix his food.  I keep thinking I have to get his shot ready.  I keep thinking he’ll be asleep next to me on the couch.  I miss his presence.  I miss his fur.  I hate that I know I won’t ever hold him again.

Moody and Jason

Moody and Jason

Breaks my heart.

I’m hoping that this new turn I am taking in my life will be exactly what I need.  I hate waiting, even though I think I am being really patient.  I’m fighting really hard, I’m trying to be strong.  I’m trying to see the progress, no matter how small.

I’m really trying.  In running and mental stability and weight loss, really trying.

Weekend In Pictures


Oh yes…. it happened


Friday Collage


The Tattoo!


11 Miler on Sunday!

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My Favorite Things

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My Children

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Debuting the head piece for my sisters wedding

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Baking creation to start off the week – Apple Pie Bread