My Crystal Says You Aren’t Telling Me Everything
This morning I woke up realizing immediately that I was scheduled to run 9 miles. My eyes immediately rolled in annoyance. It’s bad when you can’t wait till something is over, right? Something that I’ve been ‘looking forward to’ for so long, right? Well I’m there. I am ready for this to be over. But I think it might be the lead up that I don’t like. While I know I will not do well if say the half marathon was next weekend, I know I would still finish. So yeah I bitch about training, I know #firstworldproblems
So I got up, ate my oatmeal mess – WHOA HOLD UP.
I gotta tell you about this.
SO I bought plain oatmeal, and added almond slivers, chocolate chips (just a few), and Peanut butter and MAN. Not only was it delish, but it was so incredibly filling. SO filling. Which is making me think about trading this to my normal weekday breakfast, but more on that later.
Then after breakfast (Jason had Apple spice french toast and bacon) I let myself digest, then I changed clothes, did a little stretching and then I was off.
The first mile was great. The next 7 were okay. That last mile was perfect. Well that’s a lie. It was only perfect because it was the last one of the day. My entire lower body was on fire, and my chest was tight ( I need to get back to the doctor about this – If I don’t mention it this week – at least about making an appointment – stab me ), and then the minute that british woman on my Runtastic App said “Distance 9 miles” I was like “EFF THIS BITCH.” and stopped.
I walked, slowly, back to the house, and then came in and stripped myself of my electronics and then decided because of how amazing gorgeous it is outside that I would stretch on our deck. BEST IDEA EVER. It felt not only amazing, but with the fresh air I felt like I was getting really good deep breaths in.
Then I walked inside and showered. Something that not only felt amazing, but made me realize how incredibly salty my sweat is. Ok. It was gross. Seriously. I was like “Hi table salt flaking off me”. No joke.
Now I am dressed, cooled off, and drinking my post run smoothie and watching Kim and Kourtney Take New York.
I must be on a runners high if I am enjoying that.
Have a great Saturday y’all
Why I Love Today
- I was off work today because of holiday hours I had to use
- New garage doors were installed and they are not only perfect, but they are quiet and keep the cold out
- It got to 61 degrees today
- I did Yoga even though it’s my rest day, and I felt great for doing some sort of exercise (It was yoga meltdown so there was movement involved)
- I did all the laundry, and cleaned up the main level of the house – resulting in me not having to do it tomorrow
- I actually picked up the Praxis study guide book – that’s more than I’ve done ever.
- I got my W-2 which means we can file our taxes!
- I’m having a great hair day
- I’m not terrified of 9 miles tomorrow – I’m not looking forward to it, I’m just not afraid of it
- We are going to Tony’s tonight – which is the best Pizza I’ve ever had.
Embrace the Curl.
♥ Five Things Friday
- You totally motivate me to go on my long runs on Saturdays – even if it is only because you get 1 hour and some change worth on uninterrupted Zelda Playing time.
- You tell me I look pretty everyday when I leave for work. You tell me I’m hot when I’m done with a workout.
- You know that after a horrible day at work all I need to make me feel better is you talking about the plans you are making for our England Vacation this fall.
- You get so excited when I buy baking supplies because you know what boredom and baking supplies equates to.
- You are the only person who can tell me I am being irrational, and have me actually realize it too.
I love you.
*Mwah*
Tales From The Scale Friday
WI: -0.6
Whaddup.
It’s not much, but even though the scale ain’t moving, my new jeans are getting loose. WHAT. Yep. Jeans. New. Loose. Hot. Damn.
I ran last night, on the treadmill, and today is supposed to be a rest day, but I am thinking, quite possibly of Yoga. Stretch myself out before my 9 miles tomorrow.
Who’s chasing me with an axe so I actually run the whole thing?
ANYWAY.
I’m off work today. Jealous? Yeah. You should be. I’m having new garage doors put in. I’m most likely going to bake something. I’m going to do some sort of exercise. I’m also going to watch as many of the 17 recorded SVU episodes as I can.
I love this book.
I’m having a ton of fun already and it’s only 9:30 am. Laundry is going. I already broke a bottle of margarita mix from the basement refrigerator, sent Jason to work, and enjoyed breakfast.
Margarita mix? Yeah I hit the bottle early on my days off.
Actually I was moving bottles around (whew I sound like an alcoholic) in our downstairs refrigerator and the bottle just fell onto the concrete floor. So it kind of smells like the morning after a sorority party at GMU. It’s not pretty. If you have been to one of these parties, you know what I mean. You can’t ever get that smell out of your clothes or those images out of your mind.
*Cringe*
So I am off to bake, open the Praxis I study book for the first time, and possibly, just possibly take a nap. But that’s touch and go.
50 Days Till The Scariest Moment of My Life
Holy Shit.
I’m kind of scared. Not only scared, but suddenly thinking this was a horrible idea. 13.1 miles? I’M INSANE.
I mean I walked the 3-day in 2009. I’ve run like 3 5ks, and am up to 9 miles in my training (Run/walking mind you). I’m like at 10’30″ miles, which is good.
But things are starting to fail. My knees, My hip, my ankles, and my ass muscles are all flaring. They are screaming on a daily basis now. But it’s not pain as in something is wrong, it’s pain as in you need to strengthen them. Which I keep neglecting to do.
Whoops.
Well it’s do or die time now. I am not planning on picking up any new workouts now, because I’m afraid it will derail all I am working for. So Yoga, and running, and some incline walking it is until after the half.
March 17th 2012 Baby. 13.1 miles.
While y’all are drinking starting at 9:00am I will have been running for an hour at that point. Food for thought.
{Edit}
First, I’d like to apologize for the immaturity in my previous post. I have since edited it out (the part in which I am referring to) because after much thought, I wouldn’t be proving my point about being the mature one, by completing an immature act. Catch my drift? So there you go. Sorry for the post, it’s been removed, and now, we can move on with our lives.
Second, this whole “Editing” thing got me thinking. Have there ever been live moments that have occurred that you wish you could cut out and simply throw in the recycle bin? I have many as you could imagine. God doesn’t give rewind buttons for a reason. It’s the only way we can grow from mistakes, right? Believe me, you would think I had learned these lessons so far.
- Don’t put your foot in your mouth
- Pick and choose your battles
- Somethings just aren’t worth your time
- Some people just aren’t worth your time
I have a divine right to protect my family, and will gut anyone who tries to hurt them, but sometimes, it’s better to be cautious then to just react. I have to learn that.
Now that I have apologized, yet again, and revealed even more shortcomings, yet again (isn’t that on the daily) I’m laying myself out there.
I’m not sure if she reads this, but she knows who she is. I’m sorry for anything I did to upset you or your husband. I reacted because I saw the effect it had on someone that I love, something that I am sure if roles were reversed you would have done the same. I valued our friendship, and hope that it is something we can work towards again, but I understand if it’s not.
xoxo
-BSquared
My Random Public Service Announcements
I come across a lot of information that I deem to be useful but it’s not abundant enough to write a blog post for each one. So this is my listing of random public service announcements of information I have received recently that may or may not help you in your journey. So read on… Or not. I don’t care. Whatever.
- Scale Tales – I know I post my Weigh in each week – this is part of my process. But I am also not a slave to the scale. My clothes still fit – better actually – I’m two sizes smaller than I was last year, and frankly I am stronger than I was. I have more muscle and I am not turning into fat skinny. I will be toned and muscley when I am done with this whole journey of losing weight, and I’m totally okay with that. You can’t let a number that is arbitrary at best, rule your lives. I am not saying that checking the scale for health and well being is arbitrary, but what I am saying is, if your clothes fit, you made healthy choices, you exercise, and you aren’t being unhealthy with decisions, then the number on the scale shouldn’t be the only thing you measure your success by. I gained weight a few weeks ago, but last weekend I accomplished 9 miles of run/walking. 9 FREAKING MILES. That’s amazing.
- Who is a Runner? – My feeling on this is different than most peoples. I believe you are a runner if you run. I don’t think you have to be able to run an entire distance or at a certain pace, etc. Last night I did 4.1 miles and kept my pace at about 10:44 a mile. I ran 2.5 minutes and then walked for 30 seconds. I repeated that over and over and over until I hit 4.1 miles. I was ‘supposed’ to do 5 miles, but my body asked to stop. So I obliged.
- Buy a Whole Chicken – I’m not joking. Jason and I eat chicken mostly, at home. It’s lean and can go with most dishes, and frankly it’s cheaper than other meat. Last weekend when we did the cooking class, the instructor told us that buying a whole chicken and dismantling it herself is cheaper, and you end up eating for a week. She is right. We bought a rotisserie chicken this past Monday from Wegman’s, and I dismantled (okay I destroyed this poor bird.), and put the meat into tupper ware containers for the week. We have all of our meals planned and the cooked chicken for the rest of the week. Next time we are going to buy our own chicken and roast it ourselves.
- Wine – Do not be afraid of trying new brands. I picked up a bottle last night at Harris Teeter that was by a company called FlipFlopWines. I thought about spending the 7 bucks on the bottle, but remembered I had already bought a bottle of my staple (Dr. Loosen Riesling) at Wegman’s, so I decided to wait. I come to find out this morning, not only is the wine awesome (Thanks Wine Loving Co-worker) that every bottle of wine bought, they winery will give one pair of shoes to a person in need. Charity and Wine? NO BRAINER.
- I don’t need splenda – I really don’t. Day 4 without. I’ve grown to like my coffee without anything other than cream, and I swear things taste better. I will still use it on occasion. There will be things I will never be able to consume real sugar with, which is fine, but there will be a day when I will just realize I don’t need it.
- Diet Changes - Regardless of what you are changing, it will affect your body. I’ve been eating a lot more veggies and fruit than I used to. While I feel more energized and light, I’ve noticed some not so happy side effects. I have to tweak my diet so that it’s not only healthy, but balanced.
- Breathe – There will be ups and downs to everything in life. That is juts how it is. I am lucky enough to come home to a great husband, two wonderful dogs and a warm loving home. When things suck elsewhere I need to remember that.
Too Much of a Good Thing
When I find something that I love (be it food, music, etc.) I tend to indulge in it so much that I make myself hate it. Yes. This can happen.
I am afraid citrus fruit and dates will be my next victims. Over the fall season I ate so many apples that I the thought of Apple Pie on Thanksgiving made my stomach turn. I’ve watched so many episodes of Law and Order SVU that I know some of the full on monologues in seasons 5-9.
The fact is, that even though on the Weight Watchers plan Fruit and most veggies are free, that doesn’t give me license to just eat at will. I am not saying by any means that the reason I am not at goal is because of my apple and orange intake, heavens no. But I think it has to do with why I haven’t gotten comfortable with leaving the table satisfied as opposed stuffed. Does that make sense? I will binge on fruit later if I am hungry, and by binge I mean 2-3 navel oranges. That’s a lot of orange.
I’ve come to terms that my weight may not fluctuate much in the way of down while I am upping my distance with running. I am comfortable with that till after the half marathon. I think after the half marathon, I’ll do 3-4 miles Monday, Wednesday, Friday, with Yoga and weights on other days. Or may be not. Who knows. That is my current plan and that was the mileage per week that I was losing successfully and not feeling hungry constantly, so hopefully jumping back into it, will heed the same results.
*THIS JUST IN*
Melissa McCarthy has been nominated for Best Supporting Actress for Bridesmaids for THE OSCARS
*BREAKING*
Regardless, I need to start freaking tracking. EVERYTHING. So that’s what I did yesterday.. I was over my points, and not really active (yoga anyone?) but I still tracked. Today will be the same – except there will be 5 miles tagged on to it.
Weather permitting it will be outside. If it’s this foggy and hard to see tonight, I might stay indoors. Not because I won’t be able to see, but because I don’t want to get hit by an idiot driver. I could be wearing christmas lights and holding the Olympic torch, and people would still claim (where I live) that they couldn’t see me.
So Goals of Today:
- Track everything
- 64 ounces of water
- 5 miles
LET’S DO THIS
Yoga + Grocery Shopping + Feeling Better
I had a pretty stressful day. So stressful that the idea of coming home and doing anything other than beating the crap out of my body on the treadmill/pavement didn’t seem worth it. But today is not a run day. Today is a cross training day. I have to trust the process. So instead of jumping on the treadmill and possibly hitting the speed up button against my better judgement I did level 1 of Yoga Meltdown by Jillian Michaels – do not be fooled. This is not “real yoga”. It is yoga poses with movement to make it light cardio body weight training. I don’t care if it’s not actual yoga. I love the damn DVD.
Best Commercial Ever. This is the exact reason I want a Honda CR-V, and now.. I haven’t even done the 1/2 Marathon yet, and now I want to run a full marathon.
I get taken by the media very easily.
Grocery shopping was a complete success. I am about to dismantle a rotisserie chicken for meals this week, and frankly I am sure I will either lose a finger doing this or destroy the chicken itself. Only time, like now, will tell..
*mwah*
Clean Streak
Well this weekend was indulgent.
…and it was worth every. freaking. calorie point.
I also ran 9 miles on Saturday, did nothing Sunday but go to Tyson’s Corner Mall for Dog Food Bowl Mat’s from LL.Bean (Our dogs have standards), and then Target for bake ware, because after Cookology on Saturday night, I consider myself a Chef – in – Progress.
I will never go to school for said career, but I will bake up a storm in Casa de BeBe and keep myself and everyone around me teetering on a ledge between “healthy weight” and “over weight”. You’re most welcome.
I actually enjoyed this weekend, primarily, because I was with those that I care about. I got to have a girls night with Lisa, and then a nice kind of “Snowed In” Saturday with Jason + a Date Night out with him. Sunday we bummed around and then had a great dinner, followed by seeing my parents, which had been a while.
One of my takeaways from this weekend was, even though it doesn’t happen often, I indulged like a mofo. So today is Clean Slate Monday. What the hell is this? Well it won’t be yet another weekly thing I post about for a few weeks and then forget to bring up again, no. It’s a one time thing that I am sticking to.
I am giving up artificial sweeteners…. slowly. Diet Soda is phase 3 – and we aren’t close to being there yet.
Phase 1 – Coffee. I will either drink it with a tiny bit of brown sugar, or none at all. I’m working my way to drinking it black, but that could take a while.
Phase 2 – Everywhere in my cooking. I am purging the splenda in my life. Not because I am one of those people who thinks it can cause cancer, but, mainly because it doesn’t taste as good as real sugar. Fake will never be as good as real. Moderation, Bebe. Moderation. So this phase includes: Baking, Smoothies, Frozen Yogurt, etc.
Phase 3 – Diet Soda. Well actually all soda. I am going to attempt to find the ice tea I had at Seasons 52 yesterday for lunch, but something similar to it would work as well (It was Sparkling Raspberry Ice Tea and it was AMAZING).
With this removal of the artificial, I am also trying to regulate how many non-water drinks I suck down in a day. So I am keeping tabs, so far I have coffee w/ Cream, Vitamin Water Zero, and a little bit of tap water. I need to make sure to get at least 64 ounces of straight water a day, without factoring in coffee, vitamin water zero, wine, etc. This is a major downfall for me.
I also need to track and keep to what I track. I am ‘in the red’ this week, which I think is most weeks really I’m just never that honest, and even though I screwed up, I am not throwing in the towel this week. I have my menu planned for dinners this week and I am very confident on how great they will be. I am doing the whole “Salad Every Day for lunch” thing again this week, but I am going to mix it up with adding things. I am actually looking forward to the grocery store tonight so I can get things like pine nuts, and garlic cloves, and possibly figs if they have them, because I am desperately trying not to be closed minded anymore.
I tried Rutubaga and liked it. That should say something.
I’m Mario. Bring on the Turnips.
Since I skipped Cross Training yesterday, I’m making it up today with walking on the treadmill on an incline. I thought about doing a walking/running interval today on the treadmill (it’s a 20 min workout from Jackie Warner) and may be I still will.
Then it’s grocery shopping.
Happy Monday.
